Its been a long time...

(Exhale)... (again).. (deep breath)... Monday was shitty (again). today is Tuesday. I couldnt even sleep well. Shit. Still feeling the effects of Monday on Tuesday. thats not good. the sun's supposed to set on everything before you get into a new day.

So forget monday, lets talk abt the happier things in life. had a McDs lunch on Friday (a happy meal - see, thats happy). as soon as i got bc to the office, there's a power shutdown again. Lasted for abt 2hrs (i think) and i used the time to network among most other depts. That was good, went to see IEL, spoke to Export, yakked with SVD for a while, checked in with Airfreight. Then the electricity resumed (shit). ;-) Kinda miss blogging actually (oh god i have no life). but i already accepted the fact that i have no life as a MISE anyway :-(

Friday evening was good altho it took me one and a half hours to get to KL from Shah Alam cos of the traffic and the rain. was supposed to go club hopping but tak jadi cos of the rain, so malas la. thank god i didnt take the federal cos a friend messaged me saying its shit jammed, so took jalan damansara instead (i think, or was it jalan duta?), slow but at least it was moving. met up with some friends and just sat drinking in muse. had rum and vodka. not enough la, wasnt even high. in fact it was like i didnt even drink for crying out loud.. my alcohol tolerance must have reaaalllyyy increased!! could even drive straight ;-) sent my friend back, then went home. was a good trip tho, met up with some of the more (give me another word for important, something less than important but important nonetheless).. aaaahhhhhh: significant [thank you MSWord] ;-) people in my life.

drove back on saturday morning and both my parents were home (yippeeeee) and gave them a big long hug each. needed that actually. wonder why Asians dont hug so much (its like a crime). wait a minute it IS a crime. rmbr klcc? no wonder. i should migrate. or emigrate. even checked merriam webster for the difference between migrate and emigrate and it doesnt seem to be making any sense. whatever. (monday's spillover, shit).

so to move on (i'm forcing myself here).. went to the market with my parents (mind you it was 9 in the morning, i'm supposed to be in bed!). then my dad took me to one of the body workshops in town to get Gorgeous knocked. mechanic said he wouldnt ever look normal again (boohoo), but he'll be alright. so he explains the whole procedure and dad agrees and i ask him how much and he says $50. In my heart i'm going like "yippppppppeeeeeeee" ;-) so he asks me to move gorgeous into the workshop and he starts undressing him (as in dismantling, what WERE you thinking?). its like its taking forever and first his bonnet comes up, then his skirting and then his lights and his radiator and about 2 million screws along with it. then he gets knocked a little (thank god the mechanic uses a hammer with a cloth to minimize the scratches, and the paint ALMOST doesnt come off).

the actual knocking only took like 10-15 mins, the other 1+ hour was spent undressing and redressing. and altho he doesnt look the same, he does look pretty normal. i was almost tempted to pay the mechanic more, but takpe la. its not like money grows on trees anyway ;-)
(tues morn): just went for a quick hug but it doesnt really make me feel better. well, mayb a weeeeee bit, but not much. could do with another one. really need to talk to someone right now. tres, dinner tonight? or tmrw night? need a hug from you too.

shit i shouldnt be feeling like this. like 'tak sedap hati'. like you know there's something wrong and you CAN place it but there's not much you can do abt it. like if you do something abt it, you'll prob drag yourself deeper into the shit hole. but if you dont, you feel like your insides are being ripped apart (well i'm exaggerating, but i wish i could take an MC today). like you're caught in between with no option out. fuck.

backtrack to sunday - baked walnut cookies. well, they're supposed to be walnut cookies but i spent 2 HOURS searching for walnuts and no one had it, so i settled for cashew nuts instead. that was good. was dying to bake over the weekend actually and EVERYONE (underline everyone) said it was nice. *big smile*
also watched the england-ecuador game (beckham's goal was so damn cun, swear it was one of the better goals of the season).

monday: finished my meeting minutes, finished my appraisal and started on my asgmnt. finally. but there's still a lot to be done. MAC has also arranged for futsal today and i can only play if i finish my asgmnts which is due tmrw. shit again. went for a dept dinner last night to Dome - had mocha loca, fish and chips, a little bit of tiramisu and a little bit of a choc brownie with ice cream. came back to work just to start on my asgmnt. finished 1 question and left the office abt 10.45. went back, watched the italy-aus match for a while, were no goals and i got bored so went to bed. almost couldnt sleep and woke up this morning still feeling like shit. god, i'm ranting like some old crone.. came to work early and someone asked me if i've got a meeting today cos i look fancy (and all i was wearing was this maroon kebaya with 4-inch heeled slippers ;-). FANCY? i mean come on.. ok whatever.

tres, dinner sometime? i'm desperate :-)

Oh, someone just messaged me asking me how i am. thats sweet. sometimes all you need is someone who cares. someone who doesnt take you as a machine on autopilot. oh wait. there's someone now. someone who's emailing me asking me whats up and why i feel like shit. ;-) gotta go. there's always a silver lining on every cloud. and my heart's lifting already. just needed some time and a person after my own heart i guess ;-) now to get down to that fucking asgmnt or i wont be able to play futsal tonight. cheers.
June 26, 2006 Permalink

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Dammit woman! Pick up the phone and bloody call me already! =)
Posted by: Theresa June 27, 2006 04:54 AM