You have a problem with the lemon?

Absolutely hilarious Amanda ;-) and the fact that Ling kept repeating it. my goodness, that was a fun group and a fun four hours. i would consider time well spent. absolutely freaking hilarious. thks guys, love you all ;-)

i mean, he would hv been traumatised for life, he's probably younger than Ling anyway, know what i mean. IF he knows lemons that is.. *wink wink* but hilarious..

and the one where Ling asked me something (cant rmbr what) but before i could answer, Roslin goes like "come on, dont you know the only part of her which is indian is her skin?" that was interesting. i mean i always knew it myself, but didnt think it was that obvious to the outside world as well. like when i speak on the phone and everyone thinks i'm chinese. or malay. never indian. hmmmmmm.. born in the wrong country i suppose. like how i used to eat cereal and milk for lunch cos that was the time europe was having breakfast... hahahahahahahaha..

so went to the zoo to volunteer on Saturday, nice. well, depends how you look at it of course ;-) cos it included raking leaves at the chimpanzee and orang utan enclosure amid "katak puru" and mosquitoes. but after that, got to play with 2 of the orang utans, cute cuddly creatures. adorable. and got to take pictures with another orang utan, even carried it and kissed it. Mmmmmmmmmm ;-) Better than babies anyday ;-)

One thing tht was disturbing tho was tht there was a panther in one of the back cages (if you werent part of the zoo, you'd NEVER know). and it was a freaking TINY cage and a full grown panther is in it. and the best part? ITS BEEN THERE FOR 20 YEARS! Serious shit.

so we asked the keeper whats wrong with it etc. and he says that it was caught in the wild and it never got along with the existing pair in the display enclosure where the surroundings are SOMEWHAT like nature la. But this cage was barely like 2 metres by 1 metre I AM NOT KIDDING! and 20 freaking yrs! thats like a bloody prison sentence. at least they have a possibility of parole. i mean 20 yrs?

and i wanted to write in the papers regarding this and i realised that i couldnt without jeopardising my job cos the zoo people would realise tht maersk is only group of volunteers who actively asked abt the panther. i mean 20 yrs? come on...

cos the papers is a pretty effective medium, hv done it before..

and when we asked the curator during the briefing session what went wrong, he just sidestepped the issue. its interesting. so a few of us stayed back after the talk and asked him about it and he kept saying they were trying to find a mate for the panther and they had no money to make an enclosure for him alone. for 20 years? hmmmmmm, wonder what car you're driving?

so i asked him where he actually got the funds to run the zoo from and he gave this lame thing about getting funds from the public entrance fees and also corporate contributions. i mean, COME ON! you think charging 2 bucks per person to enter the zoo would cover an elephants bananas? ok that came out the wrong way but you get my drift. and he keeps pointing out the fact that the zoo wasnt included in the 10th malaysian plan or something. so we thought mayb we could write a proposal to get CSR to cover the cost of a place for the panther. anyways..

was talking to someone who was in another part of the zoo and this person said that the zoo actually got 7 million bucks a year towards the upkeep of the animals etc. which makes more sense. and its a reliable source.. so who the hell do i believe? this is crazy. who's taking the dough? i mean politics when you're supposed to take care of the animals and you take advantage just cos they cant talk and cant complain. i wish you burn in hell.

so what do you do when you in this situation? when saying something could be detrimental for you and not saying something could be detrimental for another? especially when these others dont have voices? Fuck. well, if anyone reading this has some ideas or has been in this situation before, lemme know please. and i know a lot of you say tht it wont make a difference, tht shit happens and life goes on, i could try to make a difference in that panther's existence (if it can be called an existence).

Hmmmmmmmmmmm... Exhale...........

So went out for tea with a dear person, miss you sooooo much. you know you dont realise you miss the person when you dont see them so often anymore but it all comes back suddenly when you meet them after a long time.. ;-) Te amo..

Got my first police summons yesterday. was a bit taken aback cos i always told myself i'd stop speding when i got my first ticket. and the worst part? i was doing 121 in a 110 zone. if i were caught for 140 or 150, then fair la know, but 121? i mean.. aaarrrrggghhhhhh!! so there goes my money. thought i could save for europe in the summer but there goes. have to go begging la..

was really trying to keep to the 110 limit today and the bloody drive took longer than usual. how la? Gorgeous is just sooo used to 140. its automatic. before you know it, the meters climbed up. and its a bloody pain to try to bring it down again. ned to find that thing which kinda blocks the reading, hehehehe.. trust a master mind. i mean, rules are meant to be broken right? ;-P

Tres, am supposed to send you an email but damn malas to write it now.. thats why was supposed to meet you on Tues, these things DO NOT sound the same on paper..

Dont know if i wanna go for F1 or not, damn malas, but already got the ticket. the only thing bugging me is that the weather is uncertain, your ears go deaf and you cant see the cars anyway. so totally pointless right? wonder why i bought the ticket anyway. daft!

Have been learning a lot abt being a virgo recently, interesting but still cant fathom out how the world's 500 million virgos think the same way (Earth's population = 6 bil / 12 zodiac signs)..

oh i'm losing it, i need my sleep. bye. love you all. well, not all, but you know who you are ;-)